Emma (Nivel 1) mail warning

I spend my summers working at a Christian camp for young adults (girls and boys, all 18+), where I get to share my passion for faith and connect with others who are also exploring their spiritual journeys. I believe that understanding ourselves and our relationships is part of God’s plan, and I’m eager to learn more about love, friendship, and everything in between.

I’ve never had a boyfriend, which has been an interesting journey for me. Growing up in an all-girls Catholic school, I was surrounded by girls all my life. I formed strong bonds with my three roommates who became like sisters to me. We shared everything (like room, shower, and clothes) - creating a supportive environment that helped us navigate the challenges of school together.

While I focused on building these friendships, I was always curious about what it would be like being with a boy. However, having lived around girls and with no boys allowed at my school, I often found myself secretly masturbating under the sheets in our shared bedroom at night. Now that I'm in college, I'm excited to explore new connections and learn more about love and friendship as I embark on this new chapter of my life.

As I continue to explore my sexuality, I've started to think that I might actually have become lesbian (or bisexual?), largely influenced by my upbringing in an all-girls Catholic school. My faith is incredibly important to me, and I hold extreme views when it comes to sex before marriage; I firmly believe that sex with a man is not allowed until marriage. However, I'm uncertain if those same rules apply to relationships between girls. 🤔 Although I've never watched porn before, I find the idea of it intriguing as a way to learn more about intercourse and relationships - yet I remain steadfast in my commitment to wait until marriage for any kind of sexual experience.