Annelourie (Transgénero) (Nivel 4) mail warning

My name is Annelourie, please call me Lara.

I am around 24 years old, I'm a foundling child an was named after a french township festival chosen by calendar that was on that day, so my birthday is set at february first. Thats why I prefer my nickname!
Pronouns: she | her, I would have had a female puberty if it hadn’t been for a doctor’s mistake to give me the wrong hormone preparations, so now I big boobs and girldick, so don’t call me shemale since i am not male - futa only when kinky, dirckgirl is fine i guess.

The profile picture I have is an amazing roleplay artwork by Noonyx from Rule34
and it fits well due to two reasons: its spooky how much she looks like me
plus: I live in a similar situation, I have been hopping Institutions my whole life from children’s homes to villages for children and youth to psychiatric facilities but here where I live right now I am accepted and want to stay! Best place ever.
I am even allowed to work!!

Cool? Yes, but why I tell all of this (its fine, its nothing private,..) is:
we have a big technical conception about self-control and other reflective things. It’s also free body culture so I may carry open as long as i am clothes which is a blessing for stairs since I am truly bad at tucking. (tips on tucking always welcomed)
One part of this is wellbeing-examination which makes me technically part of the dick-having peoples list so I HAVE to take part in NNN:

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Here I will keep a diary UwU

Diary:
Day 1: Started terrible, it's 1 AM and already november so my session now is ruined, it just took too long, I'm as hard as a rock, luckily I realized that its november in the first place. Going to sleep now. Update at 3AM, boner is gone, sleeping now softly.
I slept alright and started my day with a busy schedule as planned so I don't get horny thoughts, because i really don't want to fail on the first day. Evening is also chill, was chatting a little on here.
It's almost night now, I have made day 1 sucessfully! I am still up after midnight, luckily I can do that currently.

Day 2: Started okay, I woke up earlier then expected and used a trick, drinking much before sleeping so I need to use the bathroom when I wake up so I don't stay in bed. That can be fatal for me XD.
I wonder when it will start, because I am so chill right now, playing some Minecraft. No horny :)
Masturbating at night, but fine again.

Day 3: I feel great, full of energy. Has nothing to do with november, but still that's good I guess.

Day 4: Waking up was hard, in the most literal sense. Yesterday’s energy is gone, I was masturbating for far too long, but I'm good now, time to sleep.

Day 5: Was busy right after waking up, luckily not with my girldick.

Day 6: As I did not have anything to do today, simple things as touching my boobs may turn into masturbating with both hands until I am completely hard and unable to move. I was tooo exhausted to masturbare more so I am still in. It is getting harder every day.

Day 7: I feel relaxed, not harder today, by any means at all. Just a nice day, the weather was good. Interesting turn I think. I thought that day 6 was the day my horniness skyrocketed but nah.

Day 8: Horny. Can't concentrate because I have a hand rubbing on me constantly. But I can pull my hand away easily, yet when I focus on something else, it's suddenly back down there again. Now it's noon and that has calmed completely. Luck?

Day 9: Not sure whether it is normal, I suddenly get really really horny, I shiver, then some time later, like, when I go for a walk, it's fine again.

Day10: Chill day. I was so busy until now, not a single horny, I fear it doesn't stay like that, its still 7 more hours till sleep and 21 days.

Day11: A busy day, which I enjoy during november cause it keeps my mind of my sexuality. Falling down on my bed just to sleep is best feeling, change my mind.

Day12: Just one short horny attack. Well. I will keep note of how frequently that happens, I bow down, like, when I'm in my room and get so hard. I know that I have to resist because using my hands will make me cum. As a fact, for masturbation in general, I do that in my own way, as I lay down, I angle my knees up so my thighs point straight up, I put my girldick in between and because my thighs are so full, only the tip peeks out over my knees and then I grab into my thighs and move them and this is just aaaaawwwhhhh.

Day13: I forgot the diary? Means nothing too exciting happened.

Day14: My horny attacks got worse, like, the frequence, I think I had 3 which is not much but I can't get around touchiny myself, it feels too good. It feels like I need it.

Day15: I don't know if it's just my imagination but it feels like my balls grew. Is this possible? I was masturbating for 2 hours today, just to feel something. It is getting worse all the time!!

Day16: Strange, I don't feel horny today. Oh, nevermind, now it's 3 hours later and I'm masturbating because I am horny, not because I want to masturbate. I hope it goes away in the evening. If I have to spend the last 2 weeks like this, I won't have time for anything.

Day17: Time so stretchy, I guess that is normal when I look at the date every single day. Today was interesting as I was very horny but that was it, no touchy touchy needed.

Day18: I felt pretty warm today, eventhough it was cold and I feel like I am more sensitive on my curves and unlike yesterday I touched her almost constantly, but without getting hard. It seems I need support :| When I masturbate it feels like I can get close really fast, so maybe if I would go for it, to cum in maybe 15 seconds.

Day19: First hail fell today, for this year, it's cold outside and I am warm, this is usually the case for me but I feel like I am HEATED. And I get horny when I undress to shower or pee, yes I pee in the shower👉👈

Day20: It would feel so good to cum, I get eager by the day for december, but it's still 11 more days, I have no idea what will happen until then, it's so different this year. The beginning was so easy, one downer on day 4 and it got hard after day 15.

Day21: Again a busy day and this makes it so mich easier for me because I don't have time to thing or reflect, so I do not masturbate and do not get horny as fuck. But the weekend, from tomorrow on will surely be harder. I'm extited to see it.

Day22: It feels like I have to pee. I am no longer exited to see that, I don't know what to do.

Day23: It's all getting worse, I think I have precum leaking out and that has never happened to me haha but I don't type that in here cause private, but feel free to ask.
By the way, I have been wondering -there are definitely people reading this as I see from my inbox, but why have YOU smirks at your face not messaged me?

Day24: No idea what to write, it feels like I have a fever but I clearly don't. I can't even tell, my shaft feels so warm but that could be my hands, but it doesnn't feel warm on my thighs or cheeks so no idea.

Day25: This is so strange, I am completely sane, well, you know what I mean, today. Nothing in the slightest!

Day 26: (Just 4 more days yay) Nahh I shouldn't have said that, it makes it worse the more I think about it. That is logical -if I come to think about it it, but didn't seem that way when I typed that in the first place.

Day27: Don't have the energy to write something now.

Day 28: Don't feel so well, feels like I'm living in a hentai world, I failed today and don't youre day „3 more days you idiot“ nooo I did not choose this Dx.