Mister Valentine (23 级) mail warning

I have hit rock bottom in a way, which is the main (but by far not the only) reason I've stayed away from EF. I will not tell you what exactly that means, not publicly and probably not privately either unless we are very close. Other reasons include (nevermind the order, but unordered list still seem to not work):

1. My job, that I used to enjoy a lot, has become a shitshow that sucked the joy out of my life, negatively impacting my ability to roleplay and also my general horniness.
2. My enjoyment of EF had taken a huge hit, I felt disconnected from the community and also felt like there was dwindling interest in any case.
3. I had a very negative experience on here
4. To name a more positive reason, I've gotten active with the local kinky scene IRL and focused some energy on that instead.
5. To name another, which might be more bittersweet, at least regarding EF: I learned a lot about myself, and want to try to take this into account. More about that below.
6. I have not been able to identify with or enjoy playing the character "Mister Valentine" anymore. That's why, no matter what, I am done with him. I will try to elaborate.

Why Valentine is not coming back

1. The character is very, very job/office/corporate focused. And while I grew tired of the scenario even before my job turned to shit, the fact that it grew to shit has turned it from an uninteresting RP scenario to a at the very least soft limit.
2. In addition, most of the satirical nature of the character has unfortunately turned out to be more realistic than I would have liked. This includes billionaires ruining the world (more than usual), (generative) AI ruining the world and jobs, big tech just being even more shitty than usual, problematic treatment of assiatants, the list goes on and on. Not wanting to get overly political, but it's not something I enjoy joking about anymore and it feels kinda shitty now.
3. Among all the things I learned about myself, it turns out I'm not the most binary person. So I don't really want to play a character that's literally named Mister.

Why the person behind him might (or not)

1. I still like the site, the concept, many people, and most of the community.
2. I'm feeling the itch to roleplay again.
3. However, given I am non-binary, I am not sure how to best represent myself on here. Not only do I not have a great idea for another character, there's also the "problem" with the profile color, the possibility greater issue would be the whole cross gender thing. Arguably, I would always be cg-ing, or, viewed from another angle, never. But the community has been quite aggressive about that particular issue, and would maybe be unhappy either way. And it's not just what others think, I need to be happy with it, and need to find how it could be.

So in any case, I need to think. If you have questions (or better, ideas), please reach out, I will try to be around the next few days.